"Partly, yes. I find that keeping no secrets effects everything else, which I suppose should not be a surprise." He glances down at their hands, tracing fingertips across the back of Susan's wrist. "But-- I worshipped them, I think. They were the people I loved most, and they were the closest to me aside from Bors. But they also often felt... above me. Within my heart, I mean. Arthur never misused that. I think he saw it, and knew it, but Gwen may not have. Or-- not in the same fashion. Either way, that made it easy to sacrifice myself for them. Does that make sense?"