"I--" He has grown more used to speaking frankly of his feelings for Arthur, but there is still a newness about it. (In truth, he often does his best to forget them entirely, as if that were possible.) He tries again, "I think it was immediate, at least for me. Or very quickly indeed. We were fast friends. I suppose I wasn't certain my feelings had moved beyond that until I was here, without him. It isn't something one can speak of, there, so perhaps I set it by."