lanselos_du_lac

"Say on," he says, making an effort to not sound perplexed or unhappy. (He is finding his feelings on all of this to be very complicated, and this includes -- he is surprised to find -- a kind of guilt that he can't pin down. It's very unsettling; he has the sense that he would prefer they stopped speaking of it, but he knows enough, now, to understand that this is likely to help.)