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Lancelot nods, taking this in, "Aye. That's similar to how I thought of it. I don't mean to say that thee or Grantaire are lesser." He gives another thoughtful beat before he goes on.

"At court, I was bound to Guinever by mine own oath. But even if I were not, for someone in my position-- it would have been expected I marry a lady, and have no other. I would not marry, because I loved Guinever and, until Corbenic, I was faithful in my oath to her. Whatever I felt for Arthur, it would not have been permitted for us to be anything other than what we were -- even so, I often held him at a distance, because I knew we were hurting him. As I told Magnus, I think that singular focus on Guinever did me more harm than good."