He takes a breath, and doesn't try to look at Galahad as he speaks. "I was not unhappy as a knight. But I had been very unhappy at court, for some while, and nothing seemed to ease it. As I think I said, that is why I left-- I said I was questing, but I mostly needed to be away and alone," he rubs the back of his neck. "At first, here, I was distressed. Pained. That hasn't gotten much better, but in the last few days I have found some hope. And I would thank you, as you've helped with that. Showing me that I may learn new things. Try to enjoy something else. Perhaps start to let go of what has hurt me."